So tonight in an email to my mom I looked and saw that I had written this, “I think that fear really keeps my best self locked up a lot of times.” Later when I was thinking about this, I couldn’t help but think of the part in one of the Harry Potter books where Mad-Eye Moody gets locked up in a chest, which then gets put into many other chests, and the bad guy masquerades as him for quite a while.

Tonight I went to a speech and debate club meeting. I have always been nervous about my ability to speak, in general. So this was a daring step for me. But I went and just made myself keep sitting there even when I got a little nervous, and I was so glad that I did! I actually had a really good time. And they told me that I did a good job. After that experience, I felt a renewed energy to be my more outgoing, fun self. (The one that often gets locked up, while the cautious, boring one comes out and masquerades as me :) )

So tonight I realized that doing brave things that force me to say no to fear helps unlock my more fun self. :) Yay!